You might be just what I need, ,

UCAS IS DONE!!
Sent, finished, paid .. exciting.

So first show next week, um fun.
Kings of Broadway.

Many a song in my head after that such as:
"YOU WISH TO GO TO THE FESTIVAL"
"Cockeyed optimist"
"In a very unusual way"
"Whats the use of wondering"
"Ice .. cream"

Oh dear!

So Cyrano. Um. least said about that the better.

xxx

Why?!

I just can't, o.k.
I have had it.
.. I literally have no words anymore.
STOP WALKING ALL OVER ME!!!

:(

Don't think I have ever felt so ill in all my life :(:(

I just havent met you yet . .

Ok.
I know you have said it to me over and over. But it's not getting any easier, there is no easier.

Your the star shining.

TVU is actually amazing .. I can't wait till september.
:D
xxx

She smiles, that empty smile.

I feel hollow.

For know my love. As easy mayst though fall a drop of water in the breaking gulf.

Basically.

I miss Ryan
I miss Em
I miss Greg
I miss Ryan!!!

Why an earth am I still in college, I should have left last year.
Not going to lie, the extra year has helped me so much in many ways, however I am ready for a challenge. I am ready for Uni!

I have UCAS down .. I just want to get my grades and Zooooooooooooooooom ... Vanish.
I used to live for college, it was the most amazing thing in my life. Right now I don't even understand why people bother.
Concentration is non existent never mind commitment.
Shnappi is right. I need to just believe in myself and battle through.
The drive is there.

This play will be good.
If people would just shut up and get on with it.

Come home . . x