Of what we have been missing so why would anyone try ..

Apologies for the lack of Blogs I have just been way to knackered to come onto my laptop to write on my blog.
DANCESHOW =]=] |Fun times.

So not much else to say really .. people are being soooo annoying and I can't be bothered to keep having to make the effort, it's like they don't even care about me at all now. Men fuck me off!

It's my friends 18th tonight so that should be fun ^^
Also I am seeing my cousin tomorrow soooooooooo excited =]=]

Anywho I'm going to get back to watching friends .."Did she have big boobs?" .. "No wonder I didn't remember her " xD

Chow for now
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"Pop.. Six.. Squish.. Uhuh.. Siscero.. Lipshitz" <3

He had it coming!!

OHMYFRICKINGGODIACHEALLOVER ... aggggh

Dance was brilliant, I am in the Cell Block tango dance it is soooo cool ^^
It is my daddy's birthday today so I just spent the evening with him .. =]

I love Zoe!! =) <3

Hehe .. anywho I am going to get back to eating my pancake that my amazing uncle made for me ... loves ..xx
Chow for now
!X!X!!X!

Iv'e never been in love before, now all at once it's you, it's you forever more ...

But this is wine that's all to strange and strong, i'm full of foolish song and out my song must pour ... << My song =]=]

Howdy Y'all
So Sunday was frickingawesome
Spent the day with Kirst just chinchilling as you do and as usual had the most amazing time with her.
We started of just chatting and stuff about our usual gossipy subjects, we then played some rock band and owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwned it!
We then went for some lunchy poo's and laughed a lot at the stupid things we were saying and doing (it was just one of those day's)
We then went to sainsburys to grab Tor some skittles (they have new "confused" ones, they are well good=]) and me a red nose, well two cause I bought saunders one but it looks soo like his face he makes .. had to be done ..

Hahahahahahha it's soooo Luke ^^
Anywho we then got followed home by a BUUUUUFF guy (Phwoooor)
After we shook him off (aha) we went back to Kirst's and did some jamming on our guitar's ^^
It was a fucking royal day "Ruth are you having a shhhh, Thankyou" Hahahhaha Kirst you fucking crack me up.

So college to day was .. interesting to say the least.
Why do people have to know everybody's business.
It has nothing to do with you.
Don't get involved.
Grrrrrrrrr it really fucks me off!!!
But apart from all the 'drama' it was actually quite a fun active day.

Dance auditions tomorrow ...SHIT!
And then Rock Show soooon .... oh dear. I need to gain confidence, believing in myself might help ^^
I have chosen my black dress for the show though, as Hattie, Zoe and I are going for a Saturdays kinda thing ..
What do we think???

Anywho guys guitar is calling ^^
Chow for now
!X!X!X!

But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place Where she's loved concrete angel ..

I feel in a bit of a weird mood to write a blog ..
Soooo I am going to leave you a video instead =]






Chow for now
!X!XX!

Sometimes a looooooooooooong walk home from Cowley Road to the park and ride is all you need to clear your head ..

.... and No i am not kidding

It was one looooooooooooong walk home

So yesterday was actually amazing.
Spent the day with my Pidge and we had the best day as usual aha loooves :)

Then went to Megan's meal and had a really good time also, mainly because Phil just kept cracking me up .. He is a character that one.

Then after all the hullabaloo and drunkenness not on my behalf I had to take a looooooooong stroll down to the park and ride considering me, being the numpty I am, forgot that there was a last bus and it was early, woooooooooops!

So there i am little me walking down the road, heels in one hand and bag on my arm and i can honestly say i have never felt more peaceful and tranquil in like all my life.
It was literally just me, the road and streetlights, maybe a couple of buses and the odd honking car. It was lush man, i advise anyone who needs to clear their head or just get away take a looooooong stroll down a long road, preferably not at 12 at night maybe not the brightest idea on my part but hey ho.

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So after all my consideration and thinking I have decided to just give up on 'him' because i thought he was different but he is just the same as every other person who has fucked me over.
He is not worth my time!

Chow for now
!X!X!X!

Don't leave me tonight, this heart of stone will sing till it dies ...

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

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I don't need you
I don't want you

YOU ARE NO GOOD FOR ME

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I was born to tell you I love you ..

O haii. :)

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey

How's it goinggg?

Not bad, hows things with you??

Yeeah, not bad, not bad. :D S'all good.

Cool beans XD

Yeah boi!

Had a good day?

Yeah, it's been good thank you. :D Good to get out of the house, lololol. You? :D

Yeahhhh its been good fun =D

Awesome...dude.

Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

...as a nut.

=D

Fail.

You wish

Naahh..

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yeah me and Zoe are kl

Or..'cool', y'know.

To right

Lololololololol.

ROFL.

LMAO.

..... oh dear

Oh dear.

Chuckle brother's moment =D

More like, 'Chuckle Sisters', baha! ;)

........ Zoe thinks this is fucked up ... couldn't agree more XD

Good. :D

Chow for now guys ^^

...What she said. :D

LALALALALALALLALALALLALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA

.. Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone I love you and that's all I really know ..

.. I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Hello everybody, how we all doing today?

It's official I hate business work =[

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So should be seeing Emma later, going to watch He is just not that into you =]
I am quite excited as I think it should be good fun.
Also should be seeing Zoe tomorrow we are going to be ever so cool and watch High school musical 3 (yes we rock)

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I have come to realize that the only way you can honestly move on is if you decide to cut that person out of your life as much as is humanly possible sooo I am proud to announce that the number is deleted, the messages are gone and any phone call has also been erased so I shouldn't really be able to get in touch with 'him' and that is a good thing.
Plan is working =D ..... Kinda =S

Thought I would share with you the fact that I can now play this on guitar .. silly things like that make me smile ^^

Chow for now
!X!X!

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Lyrics | Taylor Swift lyrics - Love Story lyrics

When you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

He's my Vice Guy ^^

Ohmygod ...

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Don't you just love it when you recieve a message from someone who you haven't spoken to properly in ages and they just say exactly what you needed to hear =)

Thank you Vice Guy ... xx

Foaming mutilations in the kiss of death Sometimes I wish I was a pretty girl

Hello everybody

So situation has changed and I am no longer going to be "fucked" over. I have had it.
I don't get why people think that they can use, abuse basically just treat me like a piece of crap ... it's not fair.
Apologies for the tiny rant I'm just feeling well fragile =[

Pidge, "Dave", Linds, jay, Em, Harri, Zoe, they are all leaving in like 6 months and I have recently realized how empty it is going to be without them ... People always leave.


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I remember when I was about 10 my Nan used to sit with me on our garden and we would both watch the clouds roll by, It honestly felt like I didn't have a care in the world, recently I find myself wishing I was that age again ... responsibility sucks!
There are so many people who expect things of you and need things from you, sometimes I need time to myself, I can't be there for everyone all the time, I'm not super woman!

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Dance show soon ... woooooo!
Another chance for me to feel inadequate and small, god! I am so self destructive today and it's all revolving around one person.
How is that even possible? To feel so bad all because one person doesn't say something to you but does to someone else or maybe compliments you one day but ignores you the next. When did it become possible for one person to decide how you feel? .. It shouldn't be.

Many people (myself included) Worry way to much about what other people think, say and do. I for one have decided "no more!"

Easier said then done

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I finished my song today guys =]

chow for now
!X!X!

.. But watching stars without you my soul cries ..

Happy valentines day guys

I had quite a good one considering i spent it celebrating my birthday with my family as they had to work on my actual birthday =D
I am also working hard at a secret project, it hasn't happened yet but i am getting there.

Half-term this week and to be fair i have a feeling I shouldn't be to bored

Chow for now
!X!X!

Home Could Be Anywhere When I'm Holding You ...

Thanks to zoe .... ^^

Hello peeps, how we all doing today?
I had the best couple of days recently, with amazing people.

There are only some people I can spend one on one time with sooo to spend time with these two was fantastic.

Firstly me and Blue Tit went to see AVENUE Q!!! It was absolutely amazing and I had the best evening with the loveliest person <3<3<3

I spent the next day with Tuti Fruity lady ... we had Chinese =D
She needed some fun times and so did I

I love people some times <3
Chow for now
!X!X!

Penny for your thoughts but a dollar for your insights ..

Heylo everyone
How we all doing today?

Had an am amazing phone call with my pidge yesterday .. miss my old friends =[
Going to see Avenue Q on Wednesday with my Blue tit!! >>> To say I am a little excited is an understatement =D
She has also booked us a table at this beautiful theater restaurant for my birthday, never been there before but apparently it is amazing.

Hehe have you seen that new cadbury's advert with the children who can like make their eyebrows dance ^^ Love it!!





Chow for now
!X!X!

You see me the doormat, walk over my face ..

Heylo everyone
I have the worst headache ever, and what sucks is I haven't had any alcohol consumption all weekend.
I'm really not feeling it recently, i feel well used and abused. Meh this sucks!

Why is it people feel that they can use me as a taxi, a shoulder to cry on, a fucking bank.. yet when i need someone where are they? I can't even answer this question cause I have no clue.
Sometimes I just wish I was young again, things were so much easier then and people didn't affect me like they do now.
I just don't understand how some people can be sooooo clueless.

I think I am giving up

!X!X!

What am I, darlin'? A whisper in your ear? A piece of your cake? ...

Heylo Everyone .. how we all feeling today?

Any gossip??
Nah me neither =]

Soooo I have decided that I am going to stick to it and keep going, Screw everyone else.

Yeah that's the plan

!X!X!

Snow is falling all around me, children playing having fun ...

hey guys

sooooo sorry that i haven't wrote on here in ages I have just been so busy and shiz.

I had the most amazing birthday and I got a surprisingly amazing birthday surprise hehe, lets just say someone really made my day ;)... YUM YUM!

Also I have had the most amazing couple of days with a certain someone who makes me really chilled ... snow miss Dixon?

College has been stressing me out to the max, never ever thought I would say this about an educational environment but I wish we were working harder or doing more, I'm getting sooooo bored and fucked off with some people in my class grrrrrrr!!!

In contrast some people are making me feel really happy and are making it easier to get through this year ... fucking love them.

Snow day today baha was well good =D
Gotta love the snow <3

Should be hanging with my two very favorite people tonight .. maybe I will recieve another suprise gift =]
This is bad guys. I am getting severely fucked over but I can't say No .. AGGGGHH!!
I haven't a clue what to do. When you have been in love with someone for over a year and they finally decide they are going to treat you like more than a friend what are you meant to do?? Ohhh this is so bad =[

Chow for now guys
!X!X!X!